Yeah. I had decided not to keep a journal on here, but what the heck. Might as well.

So I keep telling myself that there's no point in posting anything on here because I'm so much worse than everyone else. Then I say "Screw it, I'm going to put up some of my stuff anyway!", but after that I remember something else. I no computer program to color with, and I suck with my prisma markers (then again even if I had a computer program to color with, I'd prolly suck at that too). Though, I usually end up deciding that I still may as well post some of my sketches anyway, and start trying to use my markers again. After all how will I ever improve if I don't have people other than my friends at school to give me constructive criticism? But, alas, I have no scanner.

*Must get job and buy scanner* And I really wish that I had some form of program to color with. Maybe I can end up getting one on my mom's computer, but we don't have internet at my mom's house so I can't download one. And there's no way that this computer (my dad's), could take downloading and operating ANY form of program. Hell, paintshop refuses to work on this piece of crap. The thing's a windows 98 and the internet connection is dial-up. Maybe if my big brother ever gives us that computer with windows xp he's supposedly going to give to us, I'd be able to download something even though we only have dial-up. We'll see. However by the time he gives it to us I'll probably have saved up enough money for my own laptop.

But, I suppose I'll start working on some sketches and beg my friends that actually have scanners to scan them for me. I really hate to do that though. I always feel like such an inconvenience when I have to ask them to do stuff like that for me. I mean really, it probably annoys the hell out of them to have to remember to get it scanned, then email it to me, then give me the sketch back. Oh well, maybe I'll ask them once or twice.

It's funny. I put my mood as "optimism" when I've spent this entire entry bitching. But I do feel optimistic. I just got a new sketch book, which always makes me feel better. It's like a fresh new start, a chance to NOT suck this time around. And I actually believe that I HAVE improved, believe it or not. Not that I'm all that good or anything, but at least I've improved somewhat. It shows hope for the future. I can get better, I can! LoL. I suppose I'll shut up now and go find something to do. xp

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